Me Tarzan. You burn it all down [prt 2]

This theme for this series is: Paint it black; because there comes a time when we must burn everything down. Even the excuses

2. “If I go to the gym, they’ll know...”

The worst part about figuring out your sexuality is a). everyone has an opinion, everyone “knows” what you are/should be doing and b). you have no clue what this means and you KNOW... beyond the shadow of a doubt that everyone knows or will soon know that you had a secret.

Long ago, in a galaxy far far away [the 70’s], the oracle in my life had the best gay friends [... in life]. So she knows the body of a gay man; she knows the signs. I’d say she’s rarely wrong. Now if she knows this, who else knows of these… markers? God! If I go to the gym and tone out, will everyone know for sure? I mean I take enough androgynous pictures as it is, will a good body just confirm it? You don’t know the private terror wrapped in the asininity of the thought. I eventually did go to the gym. I felt good there; can’t believe I did that to myself all these years. Granted, I’ve missed a few good months but I’ll be back [yes, yes I AM gong back. Sheesh] because I’m doing this for my health. For me. Don’t let you box yourself in with negative imaginings.

Next: “I don’t want to hurt them...”

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