Me Tarzan. You Burn It All Down [prt 4]

The theme for this series is: Paint it Black; because there comes a time when we must burn everything down. Even the excuses

“I’m waiting… [for the full package]”

Before the love of my life entered my life, I opened my eyes to the knowledge of this crazy, wicked cool girl. I’m attracted to those. This one grew up with me in church. This was a shocker: me? liking a Christian girl? Been a while! I will always remember one groovy Christian chick making the joke that she doesn’t go out with guys that are smarter than her. It may have been a joke, but clearly my mind took note of that [exit stage right]. But again, THIS ONE... was cool. But I had this preconceived notion of what “my girl” would be when she came. Partly because of a dream [or something] I believe I had years ago and partly because of this crazy, hot mad child of a co-worker friend next to me. In fact, looking at the girls I have jumped after in the last little while, they all looked like an accessible version of her. Fair, glasses, bright = Librarian.... on weed. Anyways, crazy cool Christian girl eventually got married. The “notion” showed up afterwards, I still don’t get why a). I’m still attached some and b). why it just didn’t work right. Shakes my head and chuckle. Ah, the stupidity of man. Don’t let you stop you from seeing what’s before your eyes.

Next: “I’m waiting for things to be perfect…”

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