Me Tarzan

I wrote an Easter Children's play called - Reason to Believe. Fairly self explanatory I think.  As i'm standing outside my soon to be ex office though,  watching black birds fly overhead, I am reminded WHY people don't believe. Imagine a story where a prophet is fed by ravens day after day. I told the blackbirds to fetch me money... that's not going to happen [I've done it before you see].  Oh, here's one: a prophet goes into a room, prays for a dead child and he wakes. Or how about the Apostles - whose shadows alone had the power to heal the sick.  Now, let's not forget, these acts were done through God, with God's help to DEMONSTRATE the power of the Living God... it's just funny to me that we don't seem to see that kind of thing happen anymore. Or maybe i'm blind to the obvious manifestations.  Oh but those are just stories meant to inspire good and strength. Clearly you haven't visited the Church. These are real. These things...

What, I'm a writer. I'm always melodramatic. And i'm putting this  post out because, maybe it will help somebody. That's me, all about helping... “If you need some time and space to brood i'll understand.” I laughed. As I said to him, I’m Dr. Fate with a Green Lantern Fetish  - I don’t brood. This of course [now that I think of it] is a lie. I DO brood. Massively so. But as lightbearer, I smile and get over life’s little hilarities. Like the fact that after nearly a year of secretly crushing, I finally told him the truth and he doesn’t feel the same way. Yes, him. What. Now before you “aww” and all that shit, bear in mind this was EXACTLY the outcome I prepped for. I was worried about too many things – like the fact that the Church people have gossiped enough about my mom and my family [if you think the world is hilarous, spend some time with the “Good People”]… I was worried that “people” would be right after all. And I grant you, the idea of tell...

The theme for the series was: PAINT IT BLACK. This is the recap. So you missed the BURN IT DOWN SERIES?  Well you have no excuse [oh the irony]. See the recap here! 1). "If I give it all up to God, I'll be Boring" Read it here 2). "If I go the gym, they'll know" Read it here 3). "I don't want to hurt them" Read it here 4). "I'm waiting... [for the full package]" Read it here 5). "I'm waiting for things to perfect" Read it here 6). "When I get the money, I'll get it done" Read it here 7). "Well I'm dying anyways, so..." Read it here

This song, "Paint it black" was the theme for this week's Burn It All Down series. Today, the series ends. “Well, I’m dying anyways so…” I’m not dying. But I am aware that from day one by body has not always been my ally. From Ashthma to Scoliosis to this new thing about lung infections… my body is hilarious. And let’s not talk about the headaches, ear infections and this vein in my head… anyways, God is good. Sidebar: on the weeks leading up to my spinal surgery in 2007, I did a lung function test. I think they said – one was working at full strength. One. Funny. End Sibdebar. No, I’m not dying but one time I did ask myself: “What is your last act of defiance?” If death was near, would sitting down on facebook be my last act of defiance? I still live online but I now I know differently. If you actively knew you were going to die, would you just sit around and wait for it; accelerate the progess by giving up your will? Or would you soldier on? What’s you...

The theme for this series is: Paint it Black; because ther ecomes a time when we must burn it all down. Even the excuses “When I get the money, I’ll get it done.” This one isn’t mine, it’s a groovy co-worker’s. Now I understand the logic here but the day she made that statement, I just blew up. It was just as daft as my “things to be perfect” plan . No one says to put yourself in more debt than needs be, but in the same way we take loans for Carnival and/or Christmas [because last year’s curtains are too… last year], take one and start living/doing what needs to be done. I have an apartment that I bought fully when I was twenty-eight [twenty-six if you could the payments before]; I’m updating [adding value] to the apartment even now. It’s not that I won the lotto, it’s because things need to be done. Have we learned nothing from House Hunters International? *   Don’t sit and wait for money to happen before you happen. Next:  “Well, I’m dying anyways so…” * I...

The theme for this series is: Paint it Black; because there comes a time when we must burn everything down. Even the excuses “I’m waiting for things to be perfect…” I’m doing it the proper way: I finished volume one of my seven volume book, working on volume two [I know what happens all the way to seven]; sent out a couple copies to a few beta testers [just to make sure I’m not writing in my head] and tweaked/pruned where needs be. I’m strategising the marketing for them; I know the team to draw the characters; the prequel novels [for some of the characters] have and/or are being written. … Meanwhile, every body and their aunt is making an ebook and putting it out there. There are a few liegitimate good ones. Two of my friends have the eformat down pat and I am proud. I’ll help market their books. And that’s the thing – fixing everyone else while what you love stays hidden; possibly because of fear/of having people NOT get you… again. So it has to be perfect. And yes, timin...

The theme for this series is: Paint it Black; because there comes a time when we must burn everything down. Even the excuses “I’m waiting… [for the full package]” Before the love of my life entered my life, I opened my eyes to the knowledge of this crazy, wicked cool girl. I’m attracted to those. This one grew up with me in church. This was a shocker: me? liking a Christian girl? Been a while! I will always remember one groovy Christian chick making the joke that she doesn’t go out with guys that are smarter than her. It may have been a joke, but clearly my mind took note of that [exit stage right]. But again, THIS ONE... was cool. But I had this preconceived notion of what “my girl” would be when she came. Partly because of a dream [or something] I believe I had years ago and partly because of this crazy, hot mad child of a co-worker friend next to me. In fact, looking at the girls I have jumped after in the last little while, they all looked like an accessible version of h...