Me Tarzan

                                "if i'm wrong, i am right. no need to look no further..." --> Tossed with the idea of buying a LOTTO ticket today. It’s $17Million TT. Most every one is buying a ticket tonight. I of course will not be because I am a Theist and I tend to mistake fear for faith, so while pondering, if I will be insulting God, I’m also thinking I should’ve just bought the darn ticket when I went to the grocery. It’s a one-in-however -million chance that I may actually win anyways [though I HAVE had some numbers circulating in my head]. But when I consider that I am working to pay bills; when I consider that “gee, you might have to stop buying comics” because I have bills; when I consider that my mom shouldn’t have to be wondering if she’s being a burden because she’s not working right now [that woman – Buddha- has given her life, sacrificing to the point of getting really, truly sick, JUST to make sure that I make it]… when I thi

--> I’ve been listening to SKYFALL since the radio edit dropped on Thursday. It tore through me indeed. But somewhere around Friday evening [maybe earlier], I realised that while most people were loving the song for it’s Adele/Bond value, for me it was an actual plea to Heaven. "Please, let the sky fall already." I had had enough. I wrote a short piece for my [name: classified] project and while doing so, I asked myself, “what would it take to make you happy?”. I wrote it on my phone.. Here now is the list. What would it take to make you happy? 1.               ACTUALLY seeing God I remember, the days leading up to the surgery thinking, what would happen if i went under and had some kind of Divine Visitation? What then? If I sat down to it, I can almost rationalise every faith experience. Almost. I think about how many times I was supposed to be dead - literally - and I think, it had to be God. Of course, it also had to be my mother's resolve but