It's a little after midnight on Monday and maybe it's the throbbing pain in my mouth or the corresponding pain in my ears but as I looked for a cold spot to rest my head while watching The Red Skull [Captain America] I wondered, "why is it every one who denounces humankind is either a maniac, a megalomaniac, a fool with a god complex or Kanye West?" Just once I'd like to read [or see] a situation where someone [a human] disavowed the concept of humanity in lieu of something better, grander, more purposeful.
And we're not even talking the Buddhas or some ascetic. We're not talking about any of that. Just a normal guy [normal for what it's worth] saying: "Good bye humanity. Hello..." I dunno, something better.
Admittedly, this is in [some small part] because of Man of Steel. The kind of comments I've heard just confirmed for me that logic is drifting away from this planet. Everyone just wants to feel easy. Few want to think. It's a youtube world after all. Spew your venom in the comment bar of Life. Not that I am the grand high thinker... but I wonder. I really wonder about a world that lifts up Zombie Movies rather than a man standing for Hope. And I get we're all cynical - even I, the Theist has grown exceedingly cynical... somewhat. But this is ridiculous. All because people won't think.
But lest you think this is a veiled review, understand that I have been feeling this way for a while; a long while actually and it's relatively scary when information passes through your mind and you wonder - "Who am i if not human?"
Recently, on the sister blog, i took upon myself the idea of "the lord of young gods". Young gods are the bright beings who seem to move beyond the "iCan't" of humanity. A lord is someone who either grooms them or is there to provide sustainable advice/council that they may shine/do what they're supposed to in the world. My Theist sensibilities have everything at a common level [common "g", common "l"] so as to not elevate them or self to the place of [capital "G"] God. All of this though, to distance oneself from the place of humanity.
I sat there thinking how fed up i am. Gay, straight, theist, atheist, student, professor - I'm tired of all branches of humanity. I'm tired of thinking three steps in a direction, plotting possibilities and hypotheses, for what? Humans like this madness. Our whole world is most definitely royally screwed and it's not because of weather patterns, it's human patterns. God help us all.
I worry for this world. I worry for what is to come. If intelligence is being replaced with acceptance; if cynicism is more acceptable than discourse or truth - this place will seriously blow. You know sometimes I look at the statuses of friends. I think: "it must be nice to just... throw one's hands in the air and let the universe/God figure it all out" and admittedly, there is great truth to the quit-fighting-and-let-God-be logic. But i have questions; questions I've had since i was little; more, that grew with/on me and while I will get the answers in my living years; while I will get the peace I seek in my living years humans still.... meander.
Oh c'mon guys. Figure it out! Be more. If you say that human is the best that can be had on this planet then by all means, prove it to me. Be the best. BE. More.
Pax
Tracy j H
Tracy's piece "disavowed" - on why he doesn't accept the word human anymore can be found here.
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